Just Life.

[[.FirestorM.]]

Eh, so, urr hi :3

I don't know what's been going on with me recently, I've lost all my muse and I've lost all my love for roleplaying. I used to do it for fun, because I wanted to, and now it just seems like a chore, like the rest of my life.
I've been feeling really down at the moment, longing for things I know I can't have, living in a fantasy world I can't afford to live in.
I don't like this world, and it kills me inside to have to live as a part of it. There are things I wish it would be, and things I wish I could be, things I wish I could do that just aren't going to happen.
Like I said, I've been living in a fantasy world for the past three weeks, and I need to get out of this loop as quickly as I can.
I don't know exactly what this entails, but I need to take time away from everything I'm used to, including the computer & roleplaying.
I wish it didn't have to be like this, but it does, and I have to change the way I view life, because my family don't like it.
I do, this fantasy world I live in is wonderful :3 Its my way of escaping the real world, my way of being able to express how I wish everything would turn out.
But it won't turn out that way, and sooner or later I have to realise that some dreams aren't meant to come true.
I guess you could say this is depressing, and I guess in a way it it, it depresses me to think about coming out of all my favourite DVD's and leaving al you guys for a while, but I have to do it for myself, even though it hurts.

I know I probably just need time, but thats what this is about, I need to get away from everything and just think about what the hell I am doing, because thats what I always keep meaning to do, but things get in the way.
No xD I'm not going mental, this fantasy world isn't really roleplaying, it's about DVD's I watch, and I really get into them, then when I go back to school, reality's oging to hit me like a brick wall and it's not going to be pleasent.
Anywhome, I will probably check in every now and then, but I won't be roleplaying at all, because it takes me a long time to try and write out posts at the moment, and they come out okay, but it's just no fun anymore.

Anyway, I'll see you guys some time in the future, hopefully soon, but for now, this is goobye.
I'll miss you all lots <3

Fire

[»Cyanide]

bye fire. now we're gonna have to replace you..

[[.FirestorM.]]

I'm back <3
finally (:
muse has returned

I missed you guys );